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Saturday, February 28, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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My eyes,my ears,my hands my face,my lips,my heart,my soul remembers you even when you form a smile.In my eyes,you are smiling.My mind erased you though.My heart emptied you out though.YOu’ve clearly been erased but even now it’s still no use.Though time is erasing your figure now and my mind that was filled with you is being emptied.

Though I empty my heart,My body remembers you.The memory.The more I erase it,the more vivid it gets.The memory.The more I hate it,it comes closer like a…

Is it breathing inside me?In the dark, when will it close its eyes?

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will sleep by the glow of the fireflies

hopefully I can cry no more.There are just so many things in this world that I want to do and become The happiest person in the world, that one person.Let it be me =p

I failed my test !! haha !! lols
If I'm free tomorrow I might update some pictures regarding the 25th National Day Celebration...

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/28/2009 08:49:00 PM

Friday, February 27, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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I'm so fucking bad mood last night. You know that today and last night.. I'm gonna be sleepless... yet you came to me and ask me bout my blog entries. Why are you being so sensitive? I already told you that it is nothing to do with them. You're the one mention about it and yet you blame me back for mentioning it. You always said that I don't trust you. Honestly speaking, did you trust me at the first place? It's impossible for a person to trust another person 100%.

I have learned my lesson, unlike last year... I trusted someone so much yet I got betrayed. What's the point putting so much hope and sadness on one person? Secret means something should remain hidden from others. If u share a secret to a friend of yours end up the whole friends of you knowing it. I'm not angry or blaming anything. I just want you to understand it. If I wanna tell, you don't have to ask about it. I'll automatically tell you.

Why bother so much burden to yourself with people thoughts and feelings? I seriously have enough of it. Like what you have said, you don't wanna care about it and don't wanna think about it. So try your best not to think so much.... I know it's easy to say it but hard to do it. At least you tried it. I'm still trying my best to get over it.....

To you Elyn, If you read whatever I typed there, I just wanna tell you that I'm not angry or anything. Just that, I felt very pissed off when I tell people the truth and they don't believe you.....

Good friends are like stars.
You don't always see them
but you know they're there!
Thank You Very Much !
I'm glad and very appreciate that you're a friend of mine unless you think I'm not.
and If you got offended by what I typed here and I'm sorry for being rude to you.....

* Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
* Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
* Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
* Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed
* Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
* Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
* Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
* Appetite and/or weight loss
* Thoughts of death or suicide
* Restlessness, irritability
* Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain.

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/27/2009 03:17:00 PM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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Entah mengapa saat ini aku sangat ingin menangis terus… bukan kerana aku cengang.. entah aku sendiri juga bingung, sebenarnya apa yang aku risaukan.. apakah ujianku? apakah masa depanku? apa kah aku sekarang yang lagi ga ada kesibukan sehingga berfikiran yang macam-macam… aku bingung.. benar-benar bingung..... aahhh~

hari ni aku terasa mendung saja dalam hati. mungkin juga ini semua adalah kesan dari rentetan kejadian yang berlaku pada minggu lepas. itulah antara sebab mengapa aku diam saja.. aku nada mood langsung nak memblog sebab fikiran aku penuh dengan kisah dan nasib mereka...

Last week aku mendapat / menerima 3 berita yang menyedihkan aku. biarpun berita2 yang sedih tersebut bukan terjadi pada diri aku, namun ianya terjadi pada orang2 yang aku kenal. orang2 yang aku ambil berat dan sayang. aku sakit hati banar2 laa. tak tau mengapa namun malang yang menimpa mereka itu begitu terkesan di hatiku. sehingga ke hari ini.

Andai kau mengerti …
Aku hanya mau kau pahami ...
Bukannya aku ingin berlari …
Bukannya kau tak kusayangi …
Bukannya kamu tak sayangi aku …
Namun kini biarkanlah aku _ _ _ _ _ …

Siapa mereka dan apa yang mereka hadapi, biar aku sajalah yang mengetahuinya......

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/26/2009 08:10:00 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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Don't laugh oh !!

Kehidupan adalah suatu yang susah hendak ditafsirkan. Tiada pernah ada kesudahan. Setiap hari adalah suatu pembaruan. Suatu permulaan... cerita buat seseorang insan.
Manusia bagai karakter bernyawa. Memainkan peranan dalam sandiwara dunia. Masalah datang untuk menduga. Keimanan insan yang bergelar manusia. Adakah tabah... ataupun kecundang. Manusia tentukan nasibnya. Tuhan berikan yang terbaik untuknya. Namun, kekecewaan datangnya dari kesalahan dirinya. Mereka melakonkan setiap watak... tanpa mereka sedari keadaannya. Aku umpama lelaki yang memainkan peranan yang amatlah penting. Dalam perjalanan hidup seseorang bernama halim.

Dilalui bermacam dugaan. Yang perlu ketabahan dalam setiap keputusan. Familinya besar... "adik"nya ramai. Rakannya terhad... begitu juga kenalannya. Berkenalan seorang demi seorang. Namun semuanya pergi begitu sahaja. Mungkin tidak sesuai... mungkin juga tidak sepadan. Mungkin juga ada halangan... mungkin juga tiada jodohnya. Diteruskan hidup sebagai satu permulaan. Yang ingin dilalui dengan penuh keyakinan. Hidup ini tidak akan mati selagi Tuhan masih di sisi. Semangat yang diberi akan selalu membantu dalam melayari hidup ini.

Walau mereka pergi meneruskan hidup yang dicari. Mereka bahagia dengan pilihan hati. Tidak ku cemburu ataupun sedih. Namun kentalnya hati mencari yang lebih memahami hati yang sunyi. Walau sunyi ku masih siuman. Memilih insan untuk bergelar teman. Teman bukan sembarang teman. Namun teman sehidup semati.

Bukan tidak sabar... tapi ia adalah tuntutan. Tuntutan XXXXX untuk dipenuhi setiap insan. Tercapailah sebahagian ibadah... berumahtangga... suruhan *****. Setiap insan punyai pasangan sendiri. Siapa pasangannya... tidak diketahui. Mungkin di sini... mungkin juga di sana. Tuhan tetapkan dari azali. Berdoa, bersabar dan berusaha... pekerjaan kita pastinya. Mencari dan mencari apa yang sudah diberi...........

On Tuesday aku dskula banar2 kan tampar mukanya wa.. so kurang ajar....
You think your jokes very funny ah? _|_
God damn it... Friday is coming soooooon... sigh sigh sigh...........

Aku nda suka Cousin ku yg dtg dri malaysia !! aku sasak ea banar banar2!! why?btw what i type dbawah ntg to do with the quote d atas....

Sudahth tduur rah bilik ku complain bout my room again
Suka hatinya tutup aircon bilik ku ane wa... didn't ask me okay ! nda buka kipas tutup windows !! I was suffocating time midnight....
I'm kind enough to let him use my pc.. and he complained that my pc lousy.. laggish when main dota.. Graphic card ku nda baik ko.. _|_
He used my pc watching PORN !!
Wallet ku ea pun mau complain bah.. sigh...
I was talking to my mum... and then tarus2 bagi aku Fuck you finger sign...
Slalu pakai matanya yg kurang ajar meliat orang... like 2 biji mata go to siring... (<_<)>
Banar2 aku nda tahan ea sudah ah... Thank God He's leaving this March 03!! Yahooo Aman dunia.. ea actually kn stay sini2 batah2 1.. kan cari kraja sini.. GOD BLESSED HIM !! NO 1 WANNA HIRE HIM !! YAHOOoooo !!
Interview nya masa ari tu total "phailed" why? Post as Marketing sales. He said he wanna do a challenging job. Orang atu tanya ea.. ko suka stay d office kah or keluar jalan2? then ea jawap jalan2... skali the orang asked him to create his own path way and promote product arah sarawak or sabah.. dos lah... skali ea .. cakap....he's "BORED" with it. then ea cakap it's to hard... ea sendiri jua yg cakap mau challenging..... ane tah akibatnya.... Don't Be So Ambitious and talk big when u cant .... SERVE U RIGHT !!
LASTLY HE's 31 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR .... BIG SIGH TO HIM.............

Avoiding a conflict is very tiring. It may be time to get into it once and for all.

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/25/2009 06:28:00 PM

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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I know there's somethin' in your mind,
I know there's somethin' in your eyes,
makes me feel like gainin' all my thoughts, Everyday I read between the lines,
every morning I'm avoiding for your signs.
You belong to the hell's gate,
devil of hope...

I do not need you, you're not on my mind.
That's all I left behind for you.... pain?

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NAPA crahim LANGSUNG nda mau senyum arah ku? p lau sama kamu esp cfizah sama crenzo lebar jua la. and tadi kan masa kami kan main kad arah class ku kan iatah dorang 3 lam atu. Kalinya dorang tarus kuar. APA kan masalah nya?? im not trying to make thing worse. I THINK it's YOU GUYS making it to COMPLICATED to me. PLEASE dont play with my heart. KALAU la aku ani membuat sesuatu yang nda baik arah kamu. TOLONGlah nyatakan dan katakan kepada ku. aku banar2 nda TAHAN cara kamu ani.

hey ! pls get ur fact right before talking... we're having meeting at Auditorium okay ! its 11.30am sudah.. of coz we left the room....
Since when we're making things complicated and SINCE WHEN we're Playing with ur Heart?! we can't even dig ur heart out and play dude... I seriously have no idea what we have done.
As if you're the only victim... Acting innocent.... asking for pityness... Zzzz
wtv u wan la.. "ngor mou ngan tai liao"... so

suka buat own assumption go discover new element for periodic table... under
Group 1 metal?
Haziqium
MOST reactive!
Kalah Francium

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/25/2009 08:10:00 AM

Friday, February 20, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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A few days ago..... before I'm off to Maths tuition.... chat-"ed" with Elyn... and Edited her pictures... hahaha... XD

NAh now kasi u cium liao.. !! don say i tala layan u.. don say i tala sayang u....
paiseh dat day.. wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone... if nt mistaken I ignore u on thursday noon...

Driving ~ Vroom~

Piece of cake ~

I HATE THIS PARKING !!!!! NO !! TIDAAAKZ @@!!

VALENTINE's DAY !!
I DIDNT EXPECT THIS @@!!

I RECEIVED CHOCS !! FROM Jolyn and Ryu( Kawan Baik ku ) !!

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/20/2009 06:38:00 PM

Monday, February 16, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

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Happy happy Happy ~ I'm much more happier than before sudah.. haha..hohoho

gila ah today... Akhir ku bangun ! alarm rang at 5.15am.. and aku kluar dari katil ku at 7 am ! wa... tarus masuk jamban n shower.... dress up.... keep my hmework arah beg.. katuk pintu bilik mama ku.... then aga skula... sampai there around 7.30 or 35 sudah... i tot still early... sal c Fzah called my named from behind.... then walk slowly with her.. rupanya durang finish registration sudah.... aku gagas masuk class ku..

nasib jua smua orang masih d dalam... walk ke belakang.... fred said to me that... wah hw come today aku masuk dari pintu dapan? haha... usually i entered the class from the back door.. dats y...

supposely ari ane block 1 nada class 1 wa... before masuk class passed by the junction of SA and Econs Department.. nampak Rahim gave him vapourdrops... Ms Breda asked us dos who got their credit.. must enter the class today... no 1 tau y... then no choice kan.. paksa jua masuk.... then she told us that... she wan us to enter the class once a week... which is monday.... sigh.... the class was okay just now... we were given a list of vocabs... about 370+ words... ask us to thick or circle the words that we donno....

after that having maths lesson, Ms Atul gonna b away for a few days.. coz she's involved with the national day marching... Madam Chan temporary take over... asked a few questions and she showed us the working on the board.. all of us continue doing our unfinished maths hmwk... while she's marking papers....

soon or later.. class dismissed, Break time, I went to my accounting classroom directly... surprisingly... they visited me... kawan sejati..... haha having some talk.... and then they left.... funny lah.. time d classs..... got a short fight with Pi`chiado.... not really fight la.. just main2.. saja... haha... 4 accounting hmwk... inda finish... sigh.... Ms Vyonne go through with us the test papers, Cash flow and Limiting factor.... i got 80% for cash flow and also 30% for limiting factor.. haha.. damn pooor my result... sigh.... funny things happen time accounting class was about the " mint" cardo said that he cant eat minty candies or food or watsoeva la.. sal the minty taste gonna last for a few days... thats y he cant eat it. through out the lesson while teacher explaining im wondering.... since he's not able to eat minty food... hw about brushing his teeth? i tot toothpaste ada peppermint jua tu.. i asked him immediately... Edison looked at me.. and he said Oh yea ! that really make sense..... and so chee seng bebie jovita and I were looking at cardo.. and he told us that... Darlie got 1 toothpaste which is mintyless..... and part of us start to tink about the kids toothpaste, with flavour 1... "KODOMO LION" haha... we laughed..

I'm seriously wanna say sorry to cardo.. sal punched him too hard just now... sigh.... heh
block 3 ps ps ps yahooo... wanted to do my maths work.... as i step my foot in the library, Fred and Waie were looking at me laughing and smiling... I'm wondering what's wrong... then I approached them la and asked them what wrong with kamu ketawakan aku a... mengumpat aku kali ni... and waie told me that durang kan main Big two... yatah... Fred yg kan study physics atu nda jadi... and my hmwk put aside... main main main... then c mush, Hamidi, Haziq,Halim also joined... .. then Ryu gave me some chocolates... very nice... White choco with Hazelnut... nyaman...

around 12pm, Fred balik rumah....lian and ching came to library... and ching told me something..... after that aku aga chemistry class ku...went to Ryu classroom... kacau ppl... hahah Mariatul jadi Victim... spraying distilled water at her ass .. HAHA... then she revenge jua la... lari lari d chemistry class.... while ppl doing practial.... time atu cgu durang alum g datang... haha... went back to our chem class with fakhri..... Ms Shikha go through the calculations of previous practical... and then 2.15pm we started our titration and planning practical... ended around 2.50pm... walked to library... sitting outside... beside Joven.... and msging with Fizah... kes nada kraja buat.....

and so on... malas type.... yg penting aku happy today...

yg cali time tuition.....

WORDs OF THE DAY
~~~ WATER DROPLETS~~~

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/16/2009 06:09:00 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

Why I have to bother so much?;

Fuck man... I really don like this... It's almost 2 months and its still freaking fucking bothering....
why you guys have to confess to me?! why am I still crying alone over fucking problem !....
How am I able to let free of myself? I tried so hard to forget bout it.. I just freaking cant... damn it....

I'm avoiding them, MD just too small.... everywhere u go... definitely u meet them. It is impossible for me not to greet them when they passing by me.... How I wish everything never happened... I can't pretend nothing had happened like you people do... the pain just can't fade especially when looking at you people laughing, smiling, joking around...... every 27th day of every months.... its like DEJAVU to me..... 12 days left.... sigh..... Insomnia? hmmmm i guess i need sleeping pill for that day.....

my smile my laugh.. u think its real?...... just don fucking bother me when if i'm sitting alone ... I need FRESH air.... and don ask me lame questions.

I don tink you people understand hw I feel. whether u understand or not. it got nothing to do with me. I'm so fucking stress !!.... Damn As exam coming up soon..... no matter hw much effort I have contribute for studies.. I'm still so stupid !..... I don even have the confident to pass my Alevel exam this year..... Most prolly I'm gonna retain.....

Hate me today, Avoid me today before u regret.....

Whatever happens, Happens for a reason.....

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/15/2009 03:59:00 PM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

When I'm Accompanied By You ^__^

Pissed Off;

Someone is rubbing me the wrong way -- so much so that it might start to hurt! I guess It's a good time to pull away and see if could can reconfigure my life so it doesn't get this crazy in the future...

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"and btw to you", Can't you stop all the accusations and acrimony about me? Did anyone asked for your INPUT? I have ENOUGH NOUGH NOUGH NOUGH BOUT IT.... FUCK YOU !! Can't you do something else better than creating all this Storm??... Damn it...

REnzo Peace Out (W_W) @ 2/01/2009 11:52:00 AM